A good cathartic write RPJ...do the classes, buy the books, watch the videos oh and convince yourself you are studying art. When if you pick up a brush dip it in some pigmented vehicle and simply apply it to a surface then you are learning how to express your heart-soul-spirit by actually doing art and producing a work of art that is the best you can achieve on that day. tomorrow's artwork will always be a better work. to describe one's art as 'self-taught' is a disservice to those who educated you in the past. We all picked up some basic skills in primary education and the luckier ones continued it into secondary education. The elite of course got into art schools.