Who's a Silly Boy, Then....?

Who's a Silly Boy, Then....?

Who's a Silly Boy, Then....?

As some might have gleaned, I have a few mental health problems: I've had a depressive illness for some 55 years, and while it's managed more of less successfully, it's not controlled. A side effect of this is phobia - I've had so many; dental (overcome, when I found a really good dentist), but also a new technology phobia. In this, I'm in good company: I kept pet rats for many years (splendid things: you should get one, or two; three, four.......Let them breed, and you'll have even more than you can shake a stick at). Rats are neophobic: they don't like anything new: we built a cage extension for our first rat (The Great Ralph, who adorns my blog page) and he refused to countenance it; went on strike, refusing to move, come out, feed, until we took it all out again. Given Ralph loved food, and would have sacrificed his nearest and dearest to get his paws on it, we soon realized that this was a serious matter which needed immediate attention. Now, I am somewhat similar. You won't stop me eating - oh dear me no - but attending to my Kindle e-book? Updating my website? I have a huge mental block standing in the way: I don't understand it; I don't expect anyone else to understand it; but it's like a boulder in my path that I can't shift. I've said to myself, pull yourself together. I've insulted, cajoled, intimidated myself.... but, as yet, I can't bring myself to go back to my website and update it, nor yet to go back to Amazon and find out how well my e-book has sold, still less to promote it. I know - mad as a hatter; somewhat pathetic, even - well, all right: TOTALLY pathetic. I don't know when this started, when my confidence, I suppose?, just crumbled away. But I do know it's been wrecking any chance of progress, undoing the work I did previously to get my work "out there" .... So why am I telling you lot, eh? Well - A) I'm not at all sure I'm alone in this; I think a lot of us are inhibited for various reasons - lack of confidence in some cases, clinical depression in mine, other neuroses in others: and I think it's possibly helpful to share this sort of thing; and B) actually, have any of you had this problem, and if you have, how have you dealt with it?; and C) what I need is a young person who is i) entirely at ease with websites, ii) understands that older people can be VERY strange, iii) is prepared to take one of those weird old sods in hand and just .... well, show 'em what to do. Applicants welcome..... You'll be thinking (at least, I would be) that if he can articulate the problem like this, he can surely deal with it himself. Ah, and here's where you make your error - it's not that I lack the intellect to work out what I need to do; not that I couldn't advise someone else in similar or even identical circumstances; I could: I know I could. But apply it to myself? Not a hope.... So, send me your web-aware children; camp out here in the Batcave and strike me, repeatedly, until I get it; refer me to a psychologist who deals with weird artists who can't promote themselves (I can promote you: just not me!); and I shall be eternally in your debt (probably literally, because I do hate paying bills).
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